Metric

Metric Metric Metric Metric ohh how I love your sweet sounds of new wave with a feminine kick rock. I am suppose to be writing my senior speech but I really dont know what to say. I have been putting off writing it and I can see why, I write something down, I highlight and delete it all. Slowly ever so slowly I am really becoming bitter about the whole process the only thing keeping me even the slightest bit sane is Metrics Album Fantasies which is simply amazing.

And now to try and write a two minute speech, without sounding cheesy, cliche, bitter, or lame. I am sometimes a pretty genial person why can't I be that way with this? All I can manage is.. my senior year sucked.. next year might not suck so much, God rocks!

Cars

I think I should just get this out here. If I've dated you, you've probably had car troubles. I was starting to think this amazing trait of mine went away, but no no just last month something bizarre happened to this guys car. I mean what are the odds? I can understand car troubles but being able to recall all of your ex's due to car troubles? Its a bit out there.

Speeding tickets given to 'I've never gotten a ticket ever' guys, straight edge kid getting pulled over for drunk driving, Mr.careful locking the keys in his car. I don't know how to describe the next one but this guy could switch lanes without hitting the reflectors and while backing out he hit a car. Car batteries just dying, more keys locked in cars, I think one guy didn't even have a car, and a car alarm and hazard lights that just wouldn't turn off. There was one exception because we never drove his car (on the account his car was teetering on the edge of life and death, and mine had a radio) and then on our first date he bought me car coolant because my car over heated.

Maybe Mr.Right will ride a bike?

Like Nike

46°F
Current: Clear
Wind: W at 3 mph
Humidity: 53%

So it was decently cold this morning... and it was raining ice water yesterday, I would know I helped my mom load her car in the freezing weather. I woke up this morning pulled up my blinds, touched the window and retracted my hand with cat like reflexes when I felt the wet and cold glass. Thats when I decided, irrationally, that this might be the last cold day of the year! And that it is of the utmost importance that I finish my scarf.


You'll be happy to know that I'm a little more than half way done, and I AM wearing this scarf tonight :].
Just Do it!

Little Wonders

Monday at an intersection while taking an left I noted four cars in a row with their blinkers all in sync.
Tuesday.
Today cleaned up my act and then went for a run. Melbourne isnt a big place but isnt a hickville either, so when I reached the beach of my choice and noted that not a soul was in site it was a nice surprise. Nobody was on the beach. I felt like the beach was just there for me. I even ran with my head turned to the side so I could watch the water. With the sun slowly setting I could see a lovely coral pink glow starting at the horizon line followed by a buttercup yellow and then a light azure blue. All these amazing colors seemed liked they glowed, floated, drifted right over the ocean. The water was this bright turquoise with darker shadowed parts all illuminated by bright white sea dew floating on top. My eyes were a camera set on a high contrast. It was a beautiful day. Amazing run.

favorite songs during the run - hung up - madonna, can't speak french - girla aloud, fight song, got your number, falling leaves - billy talent. the inch - peaches

Fresh From the Start

Tumbling out of bed, in the warmest quickest thing I could find, my mom said.. Wow you look intellectual today! What the heck? And I always get the response when I wear my glasses. Does that mean regularly I look like an idoit? ...

Q: Whats your favorite food?
A: Sandwiches

So what are you going to make today for lunch? I'll think of a clever name later but for now the first step is choosing the form of your sandwich. Bread, pita, wrap? (wraps are still sandwiches just cylinder in shape).

I choose my mom's homemade bread today. Since its thicker I wanted to make sure it was going to be moist - Solution : olive oil and 20 secs in the microwave.

I think a secret to making the best sandwiches is having a moist sandwich. If your sandwich is dry it doesn't matter how many flavors are bouncing around, being dry is a sandwich's worst nightmare.


Enter your condiments. I use Mayo's with Olive Oil bases. (My absolute favorite is Vegenaise ). I love horse radish and honey mustard! Using them in your sandwiches really helps the flavors flow together.







Really it looks like alot of horse radish, but it really adds flavor. Not a controlling flavor it adds it own but also helps bring out the flavor of your sandwich. Ok.. and then again I might be used to horse radish so it doesnt really effect me..kind of like the absurd amount of ginger and garlic I can use in a dish without it bothering me

Looking in my fridge I had the choice of either guacamalie or humus. I choose humus, mostly because I knew I had some avacado I intended on using.










Then its time for cheese ! In our fridge we didnt have any sharp cheddar (my choice cheese) so I used fetta, a good alternative because of its strong flavor.









Sometimes I go on my vegetarin binges because I can't handle alot of meat's protiens but this week my stomach is doing pretty well so I used some cooked chicken (later topic). Because I dont enjoy testing the amount of meat I can handle I usually dont use alot.

(Ok side note.. the colors arent very appealing Im slowly getting better at this camera thing, so .. it tastes and smells really good!)

Now for fresh

Unfortunately I didnt think the lettuce was fresh enough. It looks fresh, but in texture it was leaning toward the rubbery side. I actually dont really like using lettuce in my sandwiches, its falls out easily, doesn't have an amazing texture, and during the process of making a sandwich even if it started out fresh it can easily end up wilty. I actually LOVE using sprouts! They are my absolute favorite!! Ok so no lettuce.

For christmas my entire family came down and at their asking I made as many sandwiches as they could eat. The only thing they asked is that I wouldnt use onion in their sandwiches. I get it, kind of.. its very easy to over use onions but when I make sandwiches I really dont use that much, and I chop them up into small pieces so that the flavor is well distriputed.

Next to use up the last of the avocado. Which can be a nice substitute for meat as well as greens that might be missing... Half of the avocado was past its time, I just used the ends which were still fresh and tasted great.

With avacado and humus you might end up with a squish of a sandwhich so to add texture I grated some carrots and added them







Then skillfully smash the two sides together. Take a bite and add the salt and pepper you might want.

.. It was so freakin good...


So what are you going to make for lunch today?

A SANDWICH!



(I really love creating new sandwiches, so though my blog might still stay personal I intend to fill it with my sandwich creations)

Music for the kitchen?

Corinne Bailey Ray - Put Your Records On
Pepper - Ashes
Bob Marley - Hide Tide or Low Tide
Sublime - Summertime
Da La Soul and Radiohead - Itzsoweezzee
Jack Johnson - Taylor
Out of Eden - Lovely Day
Pepper - Your Face
Jack Johnson - The Horizon Has Been Defeated

Day 4

I'm still sick, its this horrible head cold, snot is lodged up in my sinus cavities giving me godawful headaches and my face is swollen.

While being sick I managed to stay in my room for 12 hours straight starting and finishing Terry Goodkind's book The Wizards First Rule.


I also managed to redesign my blog space.. as well as rethink my life a little bit. Let me tell you I am ready to get out of my room. Out of my house. I wont touch the el zapper (tv remote) for as long as I possibly can. I didnt manage to go running this morning, I knew running might be a difficult task seeing as though I can't even walk straight.

Again!

Im going to start running again
Im going crazyyy

Myself

I have to choose a song for my graduation class, and then a song for my own personal slide show. The music I choose will show everyone my culmination of music. I struggle though, because I am not really sure who I am. Do I choose my best friends favorite song? It is a favorite to me because it is hers' and when I listen to it I think of her. Do I choose the song I got from an ex, a song that has earned extra meaning because of all the memory attached to it. To be honest I'm not really sure. The song is suppose to be my theme song. Its not a super serious issue. But it is to me. What if I dont have a 'theme song'? Songs are my favorite because of the memories they evoke when I listen to them. I like The Killers because I think of Marah's old room; she didn't have a cd player so we put the cd into her tv which made her small room glow blue. Then we would dance and sing!

"Somebody Told me.. that you had a girlfriend that looked like a boyfriend I had in February of LAST YEAR!!!"

I could choose Road Trippen by Red Hot Chilli Peppers, it was on the first mix cd I ever got from my sister Ruth. It was when I discovered music outside of the christian genres. Not my theme song but that song brings good memories.

I could choose so many. I know I wont choose any that remind me of a boy though, I kind of want to. The songs have nice melodies and would be 'cool' but I know that definitely wouldn't be my theme song. Now the search begins...(so melodramatic!)

And then I have to find a life verse and saying...

I have a lot of verses tapped to my cabinet but they arent normal versus.. (by that I mean) when I read them I dont even see them as coming from the bible, but as special notes someone left for me for when I am feeling especially alone.

-Linds

Perfection

As a perfectionist I don't assume anyone but a perfectionist will get where I'm coming from.


I have these ultimatums where if I can make the picture in my head come to life on paper then something in my world might be fixed. Right now I am stuck on these two perfect pictures. I've had both in my head for about two weeks, and I am terrified. If I draw them incorrectly then whatever the picture represents wont be fixed and I will become discouraged, and if I dont draw them in time I will forget, and then a chance to show the world how I see life as it is.. is lost. Its so hard, I end up studying the elements in each picture and then trying to force out what I see in my mind. I've never gotten a picture 100 percent correct. The translation from mind to paper is tricky and from lack of skill and determination my thoughts are never fully brought to life. But the two in my mind currently are different and special and I'm not going to stop until they are smudged into real life.

Muscles

I've put aside running long distances, and now am entertaining the notion I could be could at suicides.

Suicides - sprinting from the baseline (basketball court) to different intervals on the court. Its hell

Im trying to finish up school, but cashing my checks and cleaning my room is all I can seem to keep up with. Im not sure but something in me is really stopping me from progressing in certain areas of my life, I know these sore spots shouldn't be hang ups for me.. but when I think about them they do get me questioning. Can I do it? Can I do this on my own?

I mean my parents dont help out alot now.. I am very independent, but the consiquences I face now for not doing things on time arent conparable to the ones I will face in the future. I just need to push into Jesus more than ever. Of course I can't do it on my own. Of course I need him!